Breakfast and conversation with a very close friend has brought on the tears and they have yet to stop. I had not cried at all so they were much needed. I could not pin point exactly why I was feeling so anxious and overwhelmed here lately. I mean, after all, my son is coming home (as if that wasn't a big enough of a deal)!
What he reiterated to me, which I had already said to myself, that there is no 'JUST' or 'Now all he has to do is ...' in this situation because there is no such thing. Right here, right NOW is where the real work begins and it's going to be MUCH greater than the JUST and ALL HE HAS TO DO NOW IS.
What if Dante can't handle the stress of being a newly released felon and reverts as a result? What if someone from his days of old tries to hurt him? What if ... what if ... what if ... I could go on but all it'll do is drive me insane.
These questions and many others have been running through my mind the past few weeks. They are what I need to pray over, without ceasing, because they are totally out of my control although I so want to and feel the need to have some kind if not ALL control.
It's almost over yet its really just beginning. This storm ends but Dante and I will shop for hurricane supplies tomorrow, the real STORM now approaches.
I can't believe I'm just finally crying.
Chanel I truly can relate my. Son promised me he had changed after being in jail for two years. The work had just begun the excitement the anxiety the peer pressure. Life. You continue to pray over him and for him is all you can do. Trust that he makes better decisions this time. And we will be praying for you. However I did it all and my son is back in jail maybe he has learned this time as well. You are awesome just trust God.
ReplyDeleteTrusting and believing Tamika and constantly praying.
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